Forgiveness and Forgivedness
On September 2nd 2012, I went to Redeemer Presbyterian Church, where I frequent for worship, and learned a very valuable lesson in life. That lesson was forgiveness…
Recently, I succumbed to evils of which heartbreak may lead one. One of those evils was bitterness. Over the last three years, I learned to grow towards God, especially during times where His love doesn’t seem ever-present. Over the last few months, my faith has grown stronger within God even though the end result ended up being the epitome of pain…
But, a saying from George Herbert, an Anglican priest, made me realize a lot of things I have to do within myself to ultimately forgive those who have pained me, to be forgiven by those I have hurt or mislead, and to be forgiven by the Man Above. The saying read:
“He that cannot forgive others, breaks the bridge over which he himself must pass if he would ever reach heaven; for every one has need to be forgiven.”
As I sat down in the midst of the heavenly jazz music and the crowds of people walking in, I thought to myself that to be released of this pain and pity on myself, I have to forgive so I can be forgiven and enter the realm of Heaven.
Dr. Tim Keller wasn’t present at the service but Rev. Abraham Cho was an amazing consolation. He taught me something very vital. See, I had anger towards the mother and brother of my ex. I felt like they failed to get to know me and only knew of my bad past and flaws. I faulted them in my mind because they never got to know me. As time passed, I learned that I cannot hold those feelings. And that part of their judgement against me was partly due to myself. And that fateful day caused the battle that we had to fight each year. The battle proved to be victorious against us. But now, instead of having anger and resentment, I have love and the ability to forgive in my heart. Only God knows if they will ever see who I truly am but God knows that I forgive them and I hope they forgive me as well.
See, the purpose of forgiveness is to obliterate the ill pasts of everyone. Everyone is a sinner; some sin worse than others. But the power of forgiveness, the practice of forgiveness, and the pain of forgiveness will allow us to see clearer and see the good in everyone. Peter went to Jesus and asked how many times shall he forgive the sins of his brothers and sisters. Jesus responded by saying, “I tell you [to forgive], not seven times, but seventy-seven times.” This doesn’t mean we should have a set limit on how many times but it shows us the power in constantly forgiving one another. All human relationships require constant repair and constant forgiveness since there is no future without forgiveness.
With that, I have learned the pain of forgiveness but that does not stop me from being forgiving. The end result will come. That end result being the entrance into Heaven and being forgiven by my Father. He knows where my heart lies. This allows me to still love those who have wronged me or even judged me. Because there’s more, for lack of a better word, reward in forgiven than to hold grudges and be bitter.
I leave those who read this, with this:
“A heart that cannot forgive, is a heart that cannot taste forgiveness.”
Let that marinate…